Forgiveness

THE ROAD TO HEALING BEGINS WITH FORGIVENESS. FINDING FORGIVENESS FOR ONE’S SELF AND FORGIVENESS FOR OTHERS TO RELEASE ONESELF FROM THE PAIN AND TRAUMA THAT RADIATES FROM WITHIN. SOMEONE VERY WISE ONCE SAID “HURT PEOPLE HURT PEOPLE”. AND WE HAVE ALL BEEN HURT. SO THEN WHOSE SHOULDERS DOES THE BURDEN OF FORGIVENESS LIE ON? OUR PARENTS? OUR PARENTS’ PARENTS? THEIR PARENTS’ PARENTS? DO WE NEED TO GET BACK TO THE EARLIEST HUMAN ANIMALS TO FINALLY FIND FORGIVENESS? IT IS A NEVER ENDING PATTERN. TURTLES ALL THE WAY DOWN. SO THEN THE CHAIN MUST BE BROKEN WITH ME. THE CHAIN OF FORGIVENESS WILL BEGIN WITH ME. I WILL BE THE ONE TO FORGIVE MYSELF AND ALL OF MY WRONGDOERS. I WILL BE THE ONE TO LOVE MYSELF. I WILL BE THE ONE TO HEAL MYSELF FROM WITHIN BECAUSE I HAVE SEEN THAT ALL OF MY PAIN IS SELF INFLICTED. I WILL BE THE ONE TO REALIZE THAT I WILL NO LONGER PUNISH MYSELF FOR A PAINFUL EXPERIENCE OF MY PAST. THE INJURY ITSELF WAS ENOUGH PUNISHMENT. WHY MUST I NOW PUNISH MYSELF FOR HAVING BEEN HURT BECAUSE I FEEL I SHOULD HAVE BEEN STRONGER TO NOT HAVE ALLOWED MYSELF TO BE HURT? WE ARE ALL DOING THE BEST WE CAN WITH WHAT WE HAVE. IT IS INSTINCTUAL TO DO WHAT FEELS BEST FROM MOMENT TO MOMENT IN EVERY SITUATION OF LIFE. YOU MIGHT THINK “THERE ARE PLENTY OF PEOPLE DOING HEINOUS THINGS EVERY MOMENT OF EVERY DAY AND THERE IS NO WAY THEY ARE DOING THE BEST THEY CAN”. REMEMBER, HURT PEOPLE HURT PEOPLE. A PERSON DECIDES TO BEHAVE BADLY BECAUSE ALL THEY PERCEIVE AS PROPER ACTION IS DOING SOMETHING HURTFUL OR SAYING SOMETHING MEAN. WE ALL ONLY KNOW AS MUCH AS WE KNOW.  AND WE CAN ONLY DO AS BEST WE CAN BASED ON THE CURRENT INFORMATION AND SKILLSET WE POSSESS.